I have lived my whole life in ignorance, attempting to find the truth, wisdom and meaning in life. Writing here is an expression of my limited understanding, hopefully helping along the way with my Self-discovery.

I share my contemplations, as I continue trying to align my outward life, with the inner understanding of my real Self.

Ramble is not my real name. This blog is, at least partly, about challenging my self-identification and questioning my investment in the externally influenced self-projections. So, I feel it is essential to explore these topics free from the shadows of my various heavily conditioned real world identities and images. May be sometime in the future, I may write with my real name. For now, I am happy rambling as Ramble 🙂

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For a more detailed motivation behind this blog, please continue reading below!

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My first very clear memory of this life is standing in front of a mirror at the age of three or four years old looking at myself and realizing it very profoundly, that this image in the mirror is ‘me’ who everyone sees and refers to, when they talk to me.

It was the first time when the realization of how I was being perceived by others, emphasized the distinction between me and others. It felt strange as it was clearly recognized, that my feeling of being ‘I’ over here, was somehow bundled up with that image in the mirror over there. It was a profound insight into how the self-identification in this world works and it was confusing.

Since then, I have always been fascinated with the inner feeling of who I am and the countless outward projections of myself that others and I perceive in the changing scenarios of life.

I have been on a one pointed quest of comprehending the discrepancies, deception, flaws, beauty, perfection and the complete mechanism of I, me, myself and thereby, understanding everything and everyone else around me.

No matter what situations I have been in life or who has been around me, I have been aware of a constant presence inside, passively observing all my reactions, as a constant companion.

This presence has seen all of me, and knows the depths of my being, my highest and lowest. It has been non-chalantly present to my every success and failure. It neither celebrates nor judges anything that I think, feel, say or do.

This presence, I have identified with occasionally as my ‘higher-Self,’ a best friend that watches over me all the time, knows me and simply loves me, as nobody else ever could.

In a way, my whole life feels oriented by this presence, whenever I have been one with it knowingly and intimately, I have felt at peace in knowing it as my real Self. In the daily turbulence of life when I am riding the waves of chaos, this presence has been the constant silent anchor.

All I have to do to regain my balance is to acknowledge that ‘I really am this presence’, and somehow the reality, intimacy and immediacy of this feeling supersedes anything else that is rocking my world, at any moment and restores the calm that is urgently needed.

This space and all my writing is dedicated to this presence.

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